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Yesterday 9:15PM, walked out from office towards my car alone. KT mak. Suddenly felt very sad. After getting in the car, I started to cry. Can't help myself thinking of you. Just can't stop crying. Sent a short msg. telling u I was very sad. U said u will call me back later.
40 minutes passed by, I managed to calm down myself. I drove back through the short-cut and everything was u in my mind.
I was doing nothing after getting myself in my room. I felt into sleep with the cellphone holding in my hand. Coz u said u will call back. I woke up once again was almost 4AM, the light was still on. No missed call from u.
Worry about me, care about me. Will be always by my side when I need. All this seems like bullshit to me. Empty promise from u, again and again. Don blame me when I didn't pick up yr phone in the next morning. I don know how to convince myself tat all yr word is true. Don ask me to understand yr situation as I don even clear on mine. Nobody will understand how desperate I am.